and I have no
fear
as I am finally at rest
while lying
here.
I just jumped from a bridge
with tears
in my eyes.
My mind can't accept
what my heart
denies.
The last image
in my head
was the devil's face
which led to many years
of silence
and disgrace.
He was my coach.
I had no
clue.
I was far too young
to know
what to do.
I have wandered
aimlessly
for two decades now.
Intimacy is a ghost
because I don't know
how
to let anyone get close
to the man
in me
when it's a frightened little boy
is all
they see.
So I leave behind
a mother and a sister
who choose to grieve
and a life
cut short
without any reprieve.
My eyes are closed
and I have no
fear
as I am finally at rest
while lying
here.
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