I'm 24 now
and I'm one needle
away
from seeking
the closure
of yesterday.
Of course in reference
'yesterday'
was 10 years ago
when perhaps
I was too young
to really know
that grieving for my parents
would take some time
to mend.
I would have to learn
somehow
to become my own best friend.
The slide continued.
I was filled
with hate
for being left behind
as if it were
my fate.
To lose two parents
in one day
is too much for any child
and then the lack of discipline
was making me
increasingly wild.
I married someone
who bore
all of my scorn.
I wish that baby
had never
been born.
Misery led me
to the life of a junkie
for the last 4 four years.
I shook violently
for the next fix
to conquer my fears.
When my eyes
open again
I will see their smiles
back home
with my parents
after all of life's trials.
**************
and I'm one needle
away
from seeking
the closure
of yesterday.
Of course in reference
'yesterday'
was 10 years ago
when perhaps
I was too young
to really know
that grieving for my parents
would take some time
to mend.
I would have to learn
somehow
to become my own best friend.
The slide continued.
I was filled
with hate
for being left behind
as if it were
my fate.
To lose two parents
in one day
is too much for any child
and then the lack of discipline
was making me
increasingly wild.
I married someone
who bore
all of my scorn.
I wish that baby
had never
been born.
Misery led me
to the life of a junkie
for the last 4 four years.
I shook violently
for the next fix
to conquer my fears.
When my eyes
open again
I will see their smiles
back home
with my parents
after all of life's trials.
**************