pulled my hand
away.
I struggled to cover up
as if
I were on display.
Yet you kissed me so softly there
that once again
I would feel
and through your searching lips
our intimacy
might heal.
I've lacked desire
for so long.
I lost all self-esteem
and it's been distressing
for us
because we are such a team.
When we came home from the doctor
hand in hand
today
you assured me that my dignity
and pride
were here to stay.
Transformed was my psyche
and this aversion
to bliss
until you lifted me up
with
your healing kiss.
Please forgive me.
my darling,
for the fatique in my voice
but this battle
with breast cancer
has given me no choice.
Although if I couldn't lay here with you
then your noble love
I would miss
when you caress me
tenderly
with your healing kiss.
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