I have lived with the secrecy
of shame
and what it defines.
You see
I had no choice.
I was behind enemy lines.
He chose me
as his lover
and such was my fate.
Indeed
I could be saved.
It wasn't too late.
For more than a year
I was his mistress
in chains
while fellow prisoners
around me
became human remains.
My virtue
was sacrificed
as I laughed with him.
The chameleon in me
ignored
that reality was grim.
The rebels gained the high ground
and once again
I was free.
I fled to another time
leaving behind
this history.
They hung the man
who sheltered me
from the horrors of war.
Even though
I conceal the identity
of being a whore.
So here we are
my darling daughter.
I still hide those nasty lies
although I'll never confess
that you have
his hazel eyes.
For the instinct to survive
can surely never
be denied
when I laid down
with the general
from the other side.
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of shame
and what it defines.
You see
I had no choice.
I was behind enemy lines.
He chose me
as his lover
and such was my fate.
Indeed
I could be saved.
It wasn't too late.
For more than a year
I was his mistress
in chains
while fellow prisoners
around me
became human remains.
My virtue
was sacrificed
as I laughed with him.
The chameleon in me
ignored
that reality was grim.
The rebels gained the high ground
and once again
I was free.
I fled to another time
leaving behind
this history.
They hung the man
who sheltered me
from the horrors of war.
Even though
I conceal the identity
of being a whore.
So here we are
my darling daughter.
I still hide those nasty lies
although I'll never confess
that you have
his hazel eyes.
For the instinct to survive
can surely never
be denied
when I laid down
with the general
from the other side.
*********